BeLoved I Am

Her:    “Beloved I Am, touch me with your passion, ignite the flame of Love within me! Leave nothing untouched! Unravel me completely.”

Him:     “Oh sweet emptiness how I yearn for you! To discover with the secrets of eternity is joy itself! Be with me now my Love for I Am nothing without your desire to know me.”

Her:     “Ah Spirit, be upon me now like no other time! Ravish me, explore every atom of my existence and leave no space unvisited. Discover in me the joy of Being.”

Spiralling through space, undoing and redoing myself, unmaking and remaking myself. There is nothing here to stop me. Unravelling myself, swirling and coming together again anew  –  a cosmic dance of Love; Spirit unknowing in one moment … knowing in the next, dancing here, dancing there, dancing every where.

Separate circles … not spirals. Bands, circles, rings – they constrict and bind. Concentric circles around the self…

The eternal Now moment found within the deepest of Self knows no bounds.

She said “Your prison is a self-made construction of the mind. It is not hard to find those who wish to help you build and maintain it, for the wages of sin may be irresistible.”

An emptiness bestows itself upon me; there is a bleakness about it, yet joy can be pulled up by a thread from this void.

To know yourself you have to turn yourself inside out.

Consciousness invading me, swarming over every part of me, nothing is left of me. A mass movement, a movement of mass. Consciousness leaving no stone unturned, no thing can stand in its way as it swarms over and through, devouring, consuming everything in its path, its wake leaving me shattered, broken apart and undone every sense I have, no sense of ‘me’ is left in this moment; I Am dissolved in the sea of consciousness.


            Something is stirring my molecules. Something is stirring them back together…

            But wait! Out of the corner of my ‘I’ a small silver fish appears. The silver fish of consciousness is back.





5 thoughts on “BeLoved I Am

  1. Anna Robson-Lovelock December 6, 2015 / 11:08 am

    An incredible depiction of a lived experience, a moment by moment account of something feeling intimately personal but also universally familiar- your words feel like home, an old soul speaking from the heart with wisdom and pure innocence!


    • lynnpaterson December 6, 2015 / 7:34 pm

      Thank you Anna for your insights – I really appreciate hearing this. I also felt the resonance with you, especially in the last section of the day.


  2. Swetha M November 26, 2015 / 7:27 am

    Beautifully written.. very deep 🙂


    • lynnpaterson November 26, 2015 / 11:48 am

      Thank you Swetha. I wrote it as I was experiencing it which is challenging for me as my tendency is to think that writing lessens it somehow… yet if I don’t I notice that writing from recollection is different, and often less intense.

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      • Swetha M November 26, 2015 / 4:36 pm

        Yes, writing is a unique medium of expression.. especially while you’re experiencing something intense. It’s cathartic 🙂


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